I feel like drowning in an ocean of heartache,

So, it`s 20. Their day. I saw them. [Insert Name Here] gave her a cake, & Girl gave [Insert Name Here] some cheap folder with a doodle. DOODLE ONLY? But I don`t think [Insert Name Here] loves her. GAAAAH. Love sucks. Anyway, I saw them hug :) :) :). OUCH. But whatever. Cause [Insert Name Here] loves asking about me to my sister, [Insert Name Here]`s friends push her to me & everytime [Insert Name Here] hears my name [Insert Name Here] looks. IT MEANS SOMETHING!!!!! WTF, WISH THEY NEVER EVER MET EACH OTHER.

The emptiness is killing me.

I feel so empty today. I didn`t see [Insert Name Here]. So I feel emo, whuuuts. But I really do. :( It`s 20 tomorrow. :| :| :| Their day, monthsary, whatever. Words can`t describe how I`m feeling right now. I mean, there are but I don`t know what to pick. HAHA. Emo is one, depressed possible, hurt YES. There`s the word, HURT. I feel HURT. Hurt because, loving someone is pain. It`s hard to get a broken heart. EWW. I think I`m love drunk. Why does love always feel like a battlefield? HAHAA!! Anyway, I was making a live journal & that Human whatever appeared, and my word was thorns. Oh yes, thorns sharp pointy things. Used in a sentence, I feel like thorns are going through me & slowly killing me. WHUUUTS. This emptiness is killing me, so I havta stop. See ya laterr.

I love you too much.

Wow this day is just so WOAH!!! Like, during English class our teacher was talking about love. And he goes, "If you love someone you have to get ready to be hurt, & if you really love that person, you`ll continue loving him/her even though you know he/she likes someone else & you know deep inside that he/she`ll never like you back" :( That hurt me. I FELT THE PAIN. I know that this person will like me someday, I feel it with all my heart. It feels different this time. I can feel something between us. It`s just hard to tell that person how much you want him/her to love you the same way you love him/her...Sometimes I cry at night knowing that he/she is with my friend. They`re almost a month now. :) Isn`t that wonderful. :((((( Someday, you`ll be mine. You`re the sun that shines so bright in my life. PLEASE BE MINE?. You will be mine. :D I hope....CAN`T YOU SEE, YOU BELONG WITH ME. <3 Don`t break my heart please. YOU`LL LOVE ME TOO I KNOW IT.

I`ve Learned In Full Meaning Because Of You

An original poem. Hope you like it. ;)

To love is to share life together

To build special plans just for two

To work side by side and then smile with pride

As one by one, dreams all come true



To love is to help and encourage

With smiles and sincere words of praise

To take time to share to listen and care

In tender, affectionate ways



To love someone special

One who you can always depend

To be there through the years

Sharing laughter and tears as a partner, a lover, a friend



To love is to make memories

Of moments you love to recall

Of all the good things that sharing life brings

Love is the greatest of all



I’ve learned in full meaning of sharing and caring

And having all my dreams come true

I’ve learned the full meaning of being in love

By being and loving with you

First blog ever!

Hey everyone! Well it`s my first blog ever. I don`t think I`d be gaining any friends anytime soon. LOL. So, today is August 17, 2009 a Monday. Hmm, nothing new a normal school day. But I found out that this person who I seem to love [alot] likes this other girl who happens to be my friend. They`re together, but I don`t know if they`re still together. I don`t know why but it doesn`t hurt me. Maybe cause this friend just said that "I`m over you", which makes me happy. OHYEA!! So, we`re going to interview our Student Council President for this project. My friend loves her, ALOOOOT. So yea, we`re happy that she accepted our interview. Oh, yes. SHE. Our school is an all girls school so we can`t avoid those Lesbian things. HAHA. So, I`m going to do my Science project & gonna update later :). Ciao.